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What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself, I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
I can’t hold on to what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in, I can’t hold on to anything watching everything spin.
With thoughts of failure sinking in, if I turn my back I’m defenseless and to go blindly seems senseless.
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll take from me ‘till everything is gone. If I let them go I’ll be outdone but if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun.
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself. How do you think I’ve lost so much? I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch and how do you expect... I will know what to do?
When all I know is what you tell me to don’t you know I can’t tell you how to make it go? No matter what I do, how hard I try I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside..

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